To balance the last post, some things I love:

Animals - watching them, interacting with them, learning about them

My family. I realize how cliche that sounds. My family is different, though. I love to be a part of it. We have character and color. We have quirks.

Drinking coffee because it reminds me of my mom. Drinking tea because it reminds me of my dad and my culture.

Autumn. Because it's beautiful in Ohio, and it's football season, and Halloween is my favorite holiday.

I love to smell flowers and have candles burning. I love to eat pie and walk in forests and lounge. I love when I realize something is no big deal. I love my boyfriend for all the right reasons. I love to read. I love the friendships that I have, the ones that have lasted.

Some things that I really hate:

people smoking around me
people who have kids that shouldn't have kids
people who waste money on shitty tattoos and cigarettes when they can't afford to feed their kids
people who drive an SUV to compensate for their insecurities
country music, but not just country music
people who listen to country music AND think it's awesome AND go to the concerts AND think the concerts are awesome.

I should do a whole post on each of these. Elaboration is necessary.

A positive note - I've been having the best sleep of my life. I go to bed at 9, I wake up at 5:45... and I sleep soundly, the whole night. For someone who has had so many problems with sleep - it has been glorious.

I'm writing from my office in my place of employment, a public high school. My title is ISGI, which means Individual and Small Group Instructor. What that means is that I am a tutor with a teaching license. They pay me as if I were a teacher, but I actually do much less. And that isn't as good as it sounds. I miss doing lesson plans and grading papers and being in front of the classroom and teaching students. Everyday, I wait for my scheduled seniors (I only tutor seniors) to come in and I tutor them. If they come in at all (they frequently skip) and if they have work to do and if they need help, then I work. At all other points of the day, I am talking to the students I know from football who stop by unannounced, or I'm trying to look as though I am working. For example, now.

I feel idle, misused, and unsatisfied.

I have no friends in the area because they all moved away. I live with my brother and his two friends. I miss female friends, I miss having a gang. I miss Tom most of all, but it would be easier to deal with if I could socialize with young adults older than 18 who were not my brothers' friends. I miss Sunny and Kim.